Have to state my issues somewhere..

- I'm bipolar. Possibly. Assumptions may be wrong and can just be never ending mood swings. I'm such a pessimist towards myself and only myself. I'm not too good with hiding emotion, I can't help it. I frequently become spaced out but I don't know why. I don't drink a lot, I don't get high like my other friends, even they can focus more -____- Sometimes I just wanna give up. I feel like I have nothing else to do. All I'm doing now is going to school, even though I can't seem to pay attention. Recently, I've been helping out my mom around the house because she's been working two jobs and she never stops. It's crazy. I d k if I could ever be in her position, I'm just lazy. I'm too needy too. I know the fact that I can't always get what I want but it seems to make me moody.. I really hate rude people too but I can't hold grudges like others so I'm easy, but not like that kinda easy. Easy as in being too kind to people even though they're an ass. Although, I always act tough, like I could do something in return to make things equal. But all that is talk, unfortunately. Maybe the doctor was right, maybe I do need a psychiatrist because apparently no one can really understand me. My boyfriend could but I don't want to worry bout me so much. Family is just physically there but they can't do anything but give me advice that don't even make sense to me or I just can't constantly follow. I don't know what to do with my life, I'm only 16. And yet, I'm thinking about when the time comes. I cry randomly sometimes or something small may have hit me hard that I just think too much. I just wished I was home schooled, maybe I could focus more. I don't need a lot of friends, because most of them are just fake. Although, I see a good in every person I meet, I don't think I'd be able to keep up with a huge social life. I can't even keep up now. well, kinda, I just don't know. But most people don't really care about what I have to say anyway, well that's what I see. Oh well.