Problems of an Individual.

Everyone has problems in life. We shouldn't stress about ours so much because we're not the only ones at stake. But still, people are vulnerable to their thoughts, much more to their emotions and it affects their actions. Whether it's relationship problems, family problems, social problems, anyone can be affected by their own obstacles. We shouldn't let our ignorance get a hold of us either and push away others' present being because we may not have been in their place or just too worried about our own issues that it degrades everyone elses. Right now, I am, or better yet, my whole family is facing an issue that could just tear everyone apart. My grown cousin, or "grown," comes to me for advice when I can't do anything at all. It's coming to a point where I'm becoming involved when I really don't favor to. With school work, social life, and family issues, I'm becoming stressed out myself. But I shouldn't back out. I shouldn't let this tear me down.

My bestfriend/boyfriend tells me that I should be stronger than this, that I have other things that I have to understand before stressing out on situations, that I should never give up because it'll just create greater problems which i'd have to start over from. His words just calm me. I can't think of anyone else who would give me advice like this, maybe because he's been through worse conditions since he was a child. This is why we should all be considerate of others and to save ourselves from desperation and to be strong no matter what someone else's belief is. We should all see a problem as a challenge to get through, an obstacle that we must face to have it resolved. Because that's what a problem is supposed to be right? Something resolved in the end. I may not know everything, i know that, and i may not be strong towards myself right now, but i'm not going to give up. Neither should anyone else, and we should also try to think of ways to resolve our own problems before asking others, especially when we may feel desperate.


Try, try, try..even if don't succeed in the end, at least you'll know you made an effort to do so. :]

GOODNIGHT

Have to state my issues somewhere..

- I'm bipolar. Possibly. Assumptions may be wrong and can just be never ending mood swings. I'm such a pessimist towards myself and only myself. I'm not too good with hiding emotion, I can't help it. I frequently become spaced out but I don't know why. I don't drink a lot, I don't get high like my other friends, even they can focus more -____- Sometimes I just wanna give up. I feel like I have nothing else to do. All I'm doing now is going to school, even though I can't seem to pay attention. Recently, I've been helping out my mom around the house because she's been working two jobs and she never stops. It's crazy. I d k if I could ever be in her position, I'm just lazy. I'm too needy too. I know the fact that I can't always get what I want but it seems to make me moody.. I really hate rude people too but I can't hold grudges like others so I'm easy, but not like that kinda easy. Easy as in being too kind to people even though they're an ass. Although, I always act tough, like I could do something in return to make things equal. But all that is talk, unfortunately. Maybe the doctor was right, maybe I do need a psychiatrist because apparently no one can really understand me. My boyfriend could but I don't want to worry bout me so much. Family is just physically there but they can't do anything but give me advice that don't even make sense to me or I just can't constantly follow. I don't know what to do with my life, I'm only 16. And yet, I'm thinking about when the time comes. I cry randomly sometimes or something small may have hit me hard that I just think too much. I just wished I was home schooled, maybe I could focus more. I don't need a lot of friends, because most of them are just fake. Although, I see a good in every person I meet, I don't think I'd be able to keep up with a huge social life. I can't even keep up now. well, kinda, I just don't know. But most people don't really care about what I have to say anyway, well that's what I see. Oh well.

The Motivator

You can probably acknowledge him as being my bestfriend as well. When in doubt, my boyfriend always seems to have a logical answer to my problems or dying questions. Unfortunately, I'm too stubborn sometimes to even listen or follow. It's something to work on but none the less, I'm always grateful for him. He supports me in every decision I make whether he agrees with it or not, plus he's met some of my family which is a big deal for me. He's someone I'd want the whole world to know about even though he has those smartass remarks or his obnoxious guyish ways. ha.


Whenever we have a disagreement, it's usually about how I am and how I need to control my emotions from my actions. Or sometimes I hesitate to tell him what I'm thinking. I really have that problem, to say what I think. Maybe it's because I have a lot on my mind but I usually don't think of much, I just think too hard. It's kind of weird but I am noticing a change in my life, not to be overly dramatic here but I've been M.I.A. for a while and it's because I don't really like socializing too much with others anymore. It's not really what I'm aiming at, at this point. It's not that I'm being antisocial, it's just that I prefer having a few trustful friends on my side instead of a billion with never ending judgement or unimportant stuff. Although, my boyfriend would always tell me to hang out with my friends more, even though I end up staying at his side anyway.


Ah, the motivator, he tries and tries but my stubborn self won't give in. I listen though, and I keep in my head what he advises me, categorizing what I feel is right or wrong. He motivates me to not quit most of the time and picks points at where I have quit at something. It may not be much of a big deal but he's right, I need to stick to what I'm doing more. I don't want it to become an oblivious habit. I hope that someday, I become as strong and sensible as him. He's like a role model to me in a way. One that loves me for who I am no matter what. I'm thankful for having a bestfriend and partner like him.



But for now, this is only the beginning. <3

Straight Ahead

The bind between one another can't be replaced,

It's the conflicts that come about face.

Day to day, i realize what is real,

It's the bond between us that i always feel.

It can't be hidden now , for it's upon us all.

It's too strong to fight and can be made easy to fall.

Our Warm Up For Honors English 10: create a poem about emotion

"Love"

The feeling so strong,
The feeling so pure.
Nothing can go wrong,
From what I endure.

To become adored,
With a feeling lifted on your shoulder,
Like a load of memories being poured,
As each day with him gets older.

Everyday it stays with me,
As it's life long protection.
Love is something worth to see,
It shows me it's direction.

This innervation reaches it's full height,
For which we see high above us.
This devotion we seek comes without a fight,
Stays inside forever, and never rusts

The warmth of love makes me perspire,
Fear it not, be prepared.
As it is a feeling of desire,
It's the fate that's been longing to be shared.